My last post, written four months ago, was a little intense, Catastrophe Before and After Ragnar Relay, and I took a break from blogging for a while. The good news, well at least for me, is that I’m back, and making a commitment to update regularly. It’s been a busy four months, and all of these updates, probably deserve their own post, but for now, let’s do a quick re-cap:
Racing continues. As soon as I got the clearance to run, once my ectopic pregnancy had finally terminated, I hit the ground running…
Coaster Run 5K at Knott’s Berry Farm on March 8th
Pediatric Cancer Research Foundation 10K on March 29 (Go Team Brody – Reaching For A Cure 2014)
Ragnar So Cal – April 10-11 – Team Name: Great Bowels of Fire (1st Place in our Division)
On May 3, my friend, Stacy, and I were baptized at Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, and our amazing group of friends were there to support us. We were also photo bombed by Pastor Rick Warren himself!
At the end of May, my brother and I were able to pull off the surprise of the century, and surprise my dad for his 60th birthday! He had no idea we were coming (I live in California, brother in North Carolina and dad (and sister) are in Maine).
I also got to visit my mom and some of her family in Maine. It was an amazing trip!
I surprised Trent with a “day date” on June 12, our 6 year wedding anniversary, and we played Foot Golf! Possibly, a new favorite sport!
Katelyn and Chelsea turned 4 in June and we celebrated their birthday, with good friends, at Pump It Up!
This summer, we’ve spent a lot of time in the pool and the girls have come so far with their swim lessons! I am so proud of them!
It’s been a busy 4 months, so this update seems action packed! I still can’t believe the girls are four. They make us laugh every day and our family is truly blessed. I promise our next update will not be 4 months away, so stay tuned!
If you asked me six months ago, “Would you ever run a half marathon?” I would probably laugh out loud while boldy asserting the word, “NO!” as my response. Oddly enough, I begin my 12-week training program for my first half marathon this week!
I signed up for the Laguna Hills Memorial Day Half Marathon on May 26th, which is exactly 12 weeks from tomorrow! I will say, 13.1 miles still intimidates me, but I am determined to make it happen, and am ready to dedicate the next couple months towards achieving that goal.
For me, a half marathon seemed unreachable, because I had always told myself that I was “just a sprinter.” I used to hate running anything further then 400 meters because I told myself that I could not do it. Finally, I’ve learned, that the biggest hurdle in my way, was not that I was not good enough to run, it was my mind telling my body that I was not good enough, and my body listened.
I was great at making excuses in life; I’m too tired, I don’t have time, or I’m not good enough. All of these excuses were just my mind’s way out of doing the work. I have finally learned that to excel, you have to train your mind, like you train your body.
My new attitude is yes, I can do this and I will do this. I learned that my fear and anxiety only live in the future, and right now, all I can do is focus on the present, one run, one day at a time. When I am feeling exhausted and want to quit, I tell myself, that these tough moments won’t last forever, my body can get through this and regrets last forever. Run, simply because you can.
The mind is extremely powerful over the body. The negative thinking was completely killing my run. Where your mind goes, your body follows. If you tell yourself you cannot run anymore, your body stops. Your brain needs to be trained just like your body to help you overcome this negative thinking.
I learned that I need to stop doubting myself and be more confident. I need to remain positive and remember the good runs I have had and not focus on the bad ones.
I learned not to compare myself to others. Today, I ran in The Coaster Run 10K at Knott’s Berry Farm. It was a personal record for me and I finished with a time of 49:23 / 7:58 pace. I beat my first Turkey Trot 10K time by 5:26! That is huge! I finished in under 50 minutes, which was a personal goal, and I placed 4th overall in my age division. Sadly, my first reaction to finishing 4th in my division, was feeling like I did not do good enough. Thankfully, my brain slapped that thought out of my head quick, and I realized, how happy I was to accomplish my personal goals. Running is not about me being better then someone else, it’s about me being better then I used to be.
So, my half marathon training begins this week. Not just the physical training but the mental training as well. I am excited for the new challenges and ready to hurdle the mental obstacles that I will probably throw in my own path.
Now that I have started to run, it’s safe to say we have a love-hate relationship. I love it because it’s challenging and I am doing something I never thought I could do. I hate it because it’s hard and being competitive, I know I’ll never win a long distance race. But that being said, I have finally learned, that I am in competition with no one, but myself.
Running has taught me that, I am capable of so much more then I have ever imagined, and I am walking away from 8 weeks of run club and 3 completed races, learning to believe in myself and to focus on the journey, not the destination.
“If you run, you are a runner. It doesn’t matter how fast or how far. It doesn’t matter if today is your first day or you’ve been running for twenty years. There is no test to pass, no license to earn, no membership card to get. You just run.” -John Bingham
Ten weeks ago, I was not a runner. Since then, I have completed one 5K and two 10K’s, and it feels incredible.
On December 14th, I met my girls from the Fit4Mom Irvine/Tustin Running Club, at Hicks Canyon Elementary School, for the Troutman Sanders Renegade Santa Run. It was my second race sporting my Sparkle Athletic skirt, which I just love! “We don’t sweat, we sparkle.”
Overall, I felt so much better during this race then I did at the Turkey Trot (which I was totally unprepared for). The first half to 3/4 mile was completely overwhelming because there were so many people running on the path, that it was extremely difficult to weave in and out of the crowds, making my pace for the first mile, the worst. After, the crowds finally started to break up, the race was a lot smoother and I actually felt pretty good during the 6.2 miles.
Wow, when I write that, “6.2 miles,” it still boggles my brain. I never pictured myself to be one to run any kind of distance. This running thing is going to be hard but completely amazing at the same time!
The official results are in…
- Plymouth Rock N Run Thanksgiving Turkey Trot 10K – 54:49 (8:50 pace)
- Troutman Sanders Renegade Santa Run 10K – 53:54 (8:42 pace)
They say racing is addictive and it’s true. No matter how hard it is during the run, and I go through just about every emotion while I am running, the feeling of accomplishment at the end is like no other. In 2014, I am going to continue to focus on improving myself and continuing my new journey!